Aysha has another site http://babyaysha.gonetoosoon.co.uk/ Written by my aunty Carole, This is the hardest thing she's had to do,BUT SHE'S GIVING ME MY VOICE ........PLZ READ MY STORY after nearly 20 years .............. plz feel free to leave me a candle or a tribute (I'm scared of the dark ) and show us abused angels are not forgotten ....If my story saves just one child then my death was not in vain ....... Please read and understand what we all went through especially Aysha. With each victim there's always someone who loves them,that hearts break never never to mend. My heart goes out to every1 who has lost a child to illness,sids ,through an accident,theres no pain like losing a child it never heals. Imagine what it was like for me. I was just 15 when Aysha was born and yet every day i saw my sister treat that poor baby (a baby i adored),horribly and unmaternally. I went to social services weekly and told them in frustration "she's gonna end up killing her and your not listening to me",How i was going to regret ever saying those words.I watched her in horror being abused until the day i found out my twinkle toe's had died.How did i find out, by ITN news (i thought i was hearing things),my heart broke and was never again gonna repair ,My mum was told the day she died,Sadly mum was unable to deal with this as she too had warned social services and had a break down. We have to live with knowing the reason we aint holding Aysha is because of our own blood,daughter/sister and her evilness. Please also visit Aysha's big brother who also died with injuries too but it was registered as cot death ..... http://karl-fisher.gonet oosoon.co.uk PLEASE NOT AYSHA AND KARLS DADS ARE NOT THE SAME,Aysha's real dad is Turkish,it was my sister and Aysha's STEPFATHER who made this angel suffer. MURDERED...I am Beautiful, cute and totally lovable so why couldn't my parents love me .....,my Nanny and Aunty Carole says ,I am the most beautiful and most lovable little rouge ....that ever lived... My name is Aysha Jane Kuddissi (aka Doreen Jane Mason),I was born on 22nd may 1986 at 12.05 am weighing 5lbs 12 oz with amazing big bright blue eyes .My name was changed to Aysha by Nanny and Aunty Carole as they feel my parents did not deserve the right to give me their names (put Doreen Mason on your search bar i'm there). I was almost 16 months old when my mum and stepdad murdered me . God called me home on the 13/09/1987 and gave me my angel wings ,ending almost 16 months of abuse inflicted with hate on me. (my first bruise appeared at just 5 days old ,Nanny wanted answers (boy Nanny was so mad),and all she got was got lies saying how it was a accident (how exactly does a 5 day old baby bruise the whole of her left cheek?) . I was failed by social services,with all the complaints that Nanny, Aunty Carole and a Barnados day nursery made with all our frequent calls to social services(Barnados called twice ,once because my mum refused shelter for me from the snow and changed my nappy in the cold ,I was wearing a summer frock and cardi and nothing else not even socks ,the next time being my mum losing her temper after Aunty Carole had words to her about my neglect ,which resulted in my mum holding a knife to my throat i was just 8 months old ,Aunty Carole snatched me away kissing my tears away , and took me to the police station Because she could'nt prove it and it was my mums word against aunty Carole's my mum was 20 Aunty Carole just 16 ,they told her to return me or face abduction charges . I was finally put on social services "at risk register", Nanny and Aunty Carole had not seen me for months and called them again voicing their concerns.. the social services had a warrant to remove me from my parents on fri (it was issued late and they thought i could wait till monday),they was so wrong , I died Sat after they smashed my head in to the living room wall (my poor little head left an inprint in the wall). When the docs checked me over i had new 55 injuries to my tiny underweight body (22LBs),this included extensive bruising,1 break and 5 fractures in my left leg,broken ribs and a burn on my hand that had been caused by a lighter ,the whole skin was burned of her tiny palm, we wont include all the old ones they found but the fatal injury was my poor head injury which caused a subdural brain haemorrhage . I was failed by social services and also my mums neighbours who heard my piercing screams but ignored me,they told the reporters they heard my screams but didn't ring the police.Just maybe if they did i might be alive and surrounded with love by Nanny and Aunty Carole,but I died alone as my mum refused to let Nanny enter the hospital room(my mum knew Nanny was going to let rip) and Aunty Carole wasn't told told till i had died . My mum was under arrest and didn,t even hold me while my life slipped away after she turned my life support machine off .....the burden of having and hating me forever gone ......Nanny burried me in my first beautifull dress it was white with lots of frills with matching socks and satin shoes .I looked like a princess the coroner said to you both ,Nanny and Aunty Carole visits my grave every week without fail and has done for nearly 20 years ,the grave is all they have left along with their memories. Even when i was dying in the the flat i lived in with my parents they kept the paramedics and hour before they could attend me ,by then i suffered a subdural brain haemorrhage...........,M y so called parents didn't even show me love while i laid dying ............. My death certificate is the photo gallery for you to view my poor body was kept on ice for over a year due to the inquest , Nanny and Carole had to wait nearly 14 months before they could bury me due to the inquest ,the trial its self took weeks and weeks . Social workers were sacked for letting me die ,but that's no comfort to Nanny and Aunty Carole .When my heart stopped beating nannie's and Aunty Carole's heart broke forever........ 1)They also made a crude splint to straighten her broken leg and would push their heads into Aysha's stomach,pressing her against the wall.This released their hands so they could straighten her leg,Till this little angel would faint with pain. 2)For punishment for not eating or crying,they would plunge her in the bath holding her head under water till her stomache swelled,then they would get her out and pump her stomache. 3)They also locked this beautiful tiny baby in a waldrobe for hours on end (now you know why she's scared of the dark).So they could listen to Elvis Presley records. 4)They laid a heavy hoover on her legs to stop her becoming bow legged (hello her leg would be bowed they broke it just about everywhere) 5) Welts from belts and buckles thats had she had been struck with all over her tiny body,even her face . 6)She was fed junk food and drank coffee and her bed was the floor. 7)Her small 22lb body had so many injuries and bruises when she died,there was hardly a place on her body that was unmarked. Will add more just a little tearful at the moment ,its the first time in 20 yrs i have seen the facts,I will finish Ayshas story List of Aysha's injuries....(will be added soon awaiting on pm report ) DON'T CRY FOR ME I'M SAFE NOW IN MY LORD'S ARMS .......CRY FOR ALL THOSE CHILDREN THAT LIVE IN TERROR EVERYDAY ................ PLEASE NEVER TURN YOUR BACK,CHILD ABUSE HAS TO STOP NOW........ PLEASE NOTE:The R.S.P.C.A had removed the family dog prior to Aysha dying.They cruelly had tied the dogs mouth together (wrapped a rope round the mouth 5 times)and left the poor dog scarred for life. Our Baby Girl Aysha The first time we saw you baby it was love at first sight, you was so small ,so fragile with a mop of black hair,you were gorgeous with your stunning blue eyes you was our twinkle toes.Your 21 years old now in earth years but forever a beautiful baby girl to us. ,and still every week me and Nanny visit your grave . You will never know how many we have asked ourselves if we could have done any more .... but in our hearts we know we could'nt,we told the social services weekly ,I even nearly got arrested by the police ( I was just 16 and they wouldn't listen and told me too take you back or be arrested for abduction)while trying to protect you,and another time when you was just 2 and a half months old i remember nanny awaking me saying she was woken by the sound of a baby crying ,well we found the baby it was you ...your evil mum had left you at 1 am on Nannies door step (not even safely just plonked you there )and gone out clubbing . Well Nanny did refuse too give you back and was ordered too by the police yet again ....why did they always believe your mums word over ours ? ,We remember your hand movements when you came to Nannies pleading with them to get you out the pram ,where your evil mum would have left you,i can even remember the tears that would dwell in your bright big bright blue eyes but was too scared to fall . I hate my sister for eternally ,your angel smile ,i still close my eyes and see that smile.your smell your blue eyes ,everything is still strong in our hearts, baby. Baby girl if mine and nannies love could have saved you alone you would'nt have died .They ordered post mortems on you 3 times baby ,we wasn't allowed to see you the coroner said it was best we remembered you how you was, but he did say your hair was down to your shoulders,I wished too have seen that and put pretty bows in your hair and you still had the earrings Nanny brought you,that i'm glad of. I remember being escorted to your home by the police to collect a few bits ,I could'nt believe it baby, the house was furnished and tidy till we got to your room ,I said to the officer wheres her bed ,he pointed to a thin blanket on floor and said over there ,baby my dog even has her own bed .....how can anyone put a baby to sleep on the floor, me and nanny asked if we could take the teddies (I still have mine and smell it everytime just to be close to too )that we had brought u on your 1st birthday he said we could, bless him we also took a couple of photo's sadly reporters from the main newspapers ask to borrow them, for us never to get them back ,apart from these 2 teddies u had no toys ,that itself baby is cruel ,no toys no bed and no love from your parents ...animals are treated better baby :(,we didn't know baby as mum would'nt let us near always blaming your step dad as she said he was a bully and a gambler ,he always in the bookies. your mum used to walk miles across London just so we could see you (it was usually to borrow money too),but we didn't care we knew in them visits you played with your aunty and neice all 3 of you just 6 months apart ,you were fed well ,aww you so loved Nanny's stew ,We even eat that stew in the summer cos we can remember you just tucking in :). I hope the aroma drifts way up too where you are baby . You used to love me pretending to drop you ,you laughed so hard that grandad ,nanny and me would laugh with you,sadly that game lost all the sparkle when whilst you was sitting on your mums knee with no protecting hand around you ,you fell onto the tiled floor,with such force everyone felt it and rushed to get you and kiss all the hurt away ,your mummy didn't she got up and walked away. Sometimes just sometimes i wanted to hurt your mummy just like she hurt you.I never played that game again not even with my own babies .Baby girl we will never forgive your mum for letting you die alone nor for letting us say goodbye ,that's the hardest never getting to tell you how much we loved you so ,and baby girl we love you deeply we tell you at your grave all the time,I just hope you hear us twinkle toes ..... We lived almost 20 years with now knowing how much you suffered my beautiful girl and knowing we failed you .....:( Your mum and step dad was jailed by the Old Baily for 12 yrs for manslaughter and given 3 years for cruelity ,they SERVED just a measly 2 years in prison for killing you baby and released in the year 1991 (approx),I don't know where your step father is Roy Aston ,but your mum Christine Mason i have heard to be living in Ireland apparently with more children (how this monster got away with bringing more innocents into this life is beyond me )They WAS RELEASED because they couldn't prove which one caused your brain haemorrage ,what a joke .......they was both GUILTY of murder not manslaughter,they was supposed to love ,nurture and protect you they failed badly ...they are evil . She is no longer Nannies daughter or my sister ,we have not seen her since the trial ......I honestly can't say if i saw her i wouldn't be on a murder charge myself ...god forgive me for saying that.We try so hard to keep your grave beautiful just as you are,as it's all we can give you and our eternal love .One day you'll get your eeyore headstone we promised ....Hope you like the lullaby's ,Baby Uncle Matthew chose these lullaby's especially for you ,U never got too know him sadly but boy he loves you ,He insisted on laying your headstone himself didn't want stranger's doing it . LOOK FROM HEAVEN BABY CAN YOU SEE YOUR VERY OWN STAR NAMED BABY AYSHA :)